Chemical Hearts

470 00:31:26,552 --> 00:31:27,761 Werther shoots himself. 471 00:31:27,845 --> 00:31:29,597 Holden contemplates suicide. 472 00:31:29,680 --> 00:31:32,516 Conrad tries to kill himself by slashing his wrists. 473 00:31:34,226 --> 00:31:36,520 This is what you were up thinking about last night? 474 00:31:36,604 --> 00:31:37,896 Yeah. 475 00:31:39,690 --> 00:31:41,567 Is that normal? Oh, Jesus. 476 00:31:41,650 --> 00:31:43,861 What? Well, I... [sighs] 477 00:31:43,944 --> 00:31:45,237 You... 478 00:31:46,447 --> 00:31:49,950 You, uh, like, seemed down this week, 479 00:31:50,034 --> 00:31:52,661 so that’s a little scary, I guess. Okay. 480 00:31:54,788 --> 00:31:56,373 How do I explain this? 481 00:31:56,457 --> 00:31:58,917 Um... okay. 482 00:31:59,001 --> 00:32:02,838 Think about what it means to be a teenager. Okay? 483 00:32:02,921 --> 00:32:05,716 Your parents pressure you to succeed. 484 00:32:05,799 --> 00:32:09,678 Your friends pressure you to do shit you don’t want to do. 485 00:32:09,762 --> 00:32:11,805 Social media pressures you to hate your body. 486 00:32:11,889 --> 00:32:16,352 It’s hard, even if you’re a well-adjusted kid from a good family. 487 00:32:16,435 --> 00:32:17,686 Okay. 488 00:32:17,770 --> 00:32:20,773 So, now imagine you can’t be with the person that you love, 489 00:32:20,856 --> 00:32:23,150 like Romeo and Juliet or Werther, 490 00:32:23,233 --> 00:32:25,152 or you lose the person that you love, 491 00:32:25,235 --> 00:32:27,154 like Holden or Conrad. 492 00:32:27,237 --> 00:32:29,990 There’s a reason why, when every author, 493 00:32:30,074 --> 00:32:33,202 from Shakespeare to Salinger, writes about young people, 494 00:32:33,285 --> 00:32:37,039 they can’t avoid the truth, that... 495 00:32:37,122 --> 00:32:40,334 being young is so painful, 496 00:32:40,417 --> 00:32:44,630 it’s almost, like, too much to feel. 497 00:32:45,839 --> 00:32:47,716 Yeah, are you, like... 498 00:32:49,468 --> 00:32:50,678 suicidal or... 499 00:32:50,761 --> 00:32:52,846 No. God. I mean... 500 00:32:53,972 --> 00:32:55,891 Look, I’m not gonna kill myself. 501 00:32:55,974 --> 00:33:01,271 But have I thought about what it would be like to just not be here anymore? 502 00:33:01,355 --> 00:33:02,606 Yeah. 503 00:33:02,690 --> 00:33:06,318 And I don’t say that casually, but I do say it 504 00:33:06,402 --> 00:33:11,407 because hiding that shit and not saying it makes it worse. 505 00:33:11,490 --> 00:33:12,533 It should be talked about. 506 00:33:12,616 --> 00:33:14,618 All of our shit should be talked about. 507 00:33:14,702 --> 00:33:15,786 Mmm. 508 00:33:17,162 --> 00:33:20,999 The teenage years are... limbo. 509 00:33:21,083 --> 00:33:25,045 You’re somewhere between being a kid and an adult, 510 00:33:25,129 --> 00:33:28,465 and the world, uh, tells you to be mature 511 00:33:28,549 --> 00:33:30,718 and express yourself, but the minute that you do, 512 00:33:30,801 --> 00:33:32,052 it tells you to shut up. 513 00:33:33,554 --> 00:33:37,433 The thing is, adults are just scarred kids who were lucky enough 514 00:33:37,516 --> 00:33:40,102 to make it out of limbo alive. 515 00:33:40,185 --> 00:33:41,520 Which is why... 516 00:33:43,188 --> 00:33:47,776 the theme of our last issue should be "Teenage Limbo." 517 00:33:51,113 --> 00:33:52,531 [quietly] Yeah. 518 00:33:54,491 --> 00:33:57,369 -[mouse clicking] -[La] Henry’s sister is studying to become a neurosurgeon, 519 00:33:57,453 --> 00:34:01,290 and she explained that the teenage brain goes through an upgrade 520 00:34:01,373 --> 00:34:05,002 before it matures to an adult brain. 521 00:34:05,085 --> 00:34:10,424 So, the upgrade is like an explosion of connections and synapses 522 00:34:10,507 --> 00:34:11,842 as we figure out what’s right. 523 00:34:11,925 --> 00:34:13,802 [gasps] 524 00:34:13,886 --> 00:34:15,053 Or wrong. [sighs] 525 00:34:15,137 --> 00:34:17,055 What we like, what we don’t like. 526 00:34:17,139 --> 00:34:19,183 You know, who we want to be. 527 00:34:19,266 --> 00:34:21,185 -[mouse clicking] -Each page of the issue 528 00:34:21,268 --> 00:34:25,314 is the brain refining itself, figuring itself out, 529 00:34:25,397 --> 00:34:29,693 until eventually it’s out of limbo. 530 00:34:29,777 --> 00:34:31,737 So dope. 531 00:34:33,071 --> 00:34:34,490 [quietly] Yeah. Dope. 532 00:34:34,573 --> 00:34:36,784 [claps] All right. Sweet. 533 00:34:36,867 --> 00:34:41,997 Um... so I think we could kind of just 534 00:34:42,080 --> 00:34:46,084 start a-- kind of a discussion, like what are we confused about, 535 00:34:46,168 --> 00:34:48,670 what, uh, maybe scares us. 536 00:34:48,754 --> 00:34:52,132 Um, like, are there things maybe 537 00:34:52,216 --> 00:34:54,176 you keep inside that you’re afraid to... 538 00:34:55,302 --> 00:34:56,595 Um... 539 00:34:58,514 --> 00:35:00,349 Do you have something? 540 00:35:02,100 --> 00:35:03,519 Um... 541 00:35:05,229 --> 00:35:08,482 Well, yeah, I mean, I do, but I was gonna... 542 00:35:08,565 --> 00:35:11