Lust for Life

00:41:10,017 --> 00:41:13,748 He said I had no talent. Even if I did, I started too late. 514 00:41:14,321 --> 00:41:17,688 That leaves only your cousin Mauve. Couldn't he help? 515 00:41:21,729 --> 00:41:24,391 Or did you have a fight with him, too? 516 00:41:26,433 --> 00:41:27,457 Did you? 517 00:41:27,535 --> 00:41:30,936 Mauve can go to hell. He helps me when he's in the mood. 518 00:41:31,005 --> 00:41:33,974 The rest of the time, he doesn't care whether I'm dead or alive. 519 00:41:34,041 --> 00:41:37,010 "Oh, I'm sorry, my boy. Go home. I can't see you now. 520 00:41:37,077 --> 00:41:38,601 "Go home and work with those casts." 521 00:41:38,679 --> 00:41:41,045 I'm sick of working with those idiotic casts! 522 00:41:41,115 --> 00:41:43,345 Don't look down your nose at those casts of his. 523 00:41:43,417 --> 00:41:45,408 He sells what he paints! 524 00:41:46,287 --> 00:41:50,053 I don't want to hear about those casts from you or from anybody else! 525 00:42:05,706 --> 00:42:06,798 Cien? 526 00:42:10,311 --> 00:42:13,109 Where've you been? I asked you where you've been. 527 00:42:13,180 --> 00:42:15,580 - At my mother's. - For two days? 528 00:42:15,916 --> 00:42:18,817 - You said you wouldn't go back. - There was something to eat. 529 00:42:18,886 --> 00:42:20,820 You promised not to get into that life again. 530 00:42:20,888 --> 00:42:23,049 And some jokes for a change. 531 00:42:25,626 --> 00:42:29,187 - Where are you going? - My father's ill. I have to go back. 532 00:42:34,902 --> 00:42:38,235 - How long will you be gone? - Depends on what happens. 533 00:42:39,573 --> 00:42:42,371 - Vincent, I... - Yes? 534 00:42:45,679 --> 00:42:47,078 What is it? 535 00:42:49,283 --> 00:42:50,545 Nothing. 536 00:42:54,822 --> 00:42:57,052 There's some painting muslin left in the cupboard. 537 00:42:57,124 --> 00:42:58,352 Make some shirts for the boy. 538 00:42:58,425 --> 00:43:00,359 I won't be there when you get back. 539 00:43:00,427 --> 00:43:02,395 - Don't say that. - I didn't want to tell you. 540 00:43:02,463 --> 00:43:05,762 I've been feeling restless. Besides, my mother's right, what she said. 541 00:43:05,833 --> 00:43:07,801 You don't earn enough for me and the baby. 542 00:43:07,868 --> 00:43:09,893 - It's a bad life. - This is no time for... 543 00:43:09,970 --> 00:43:13,667 You'll forget about us once you get home. It won't be hard. 544 00:43:15,476 --> 00:43:19,913 - Where will you go? How will you live? - It'll be the old life, I suppose. 545 00:43:20,147 --> 00:43:22,741 Vincent, it's not your fault. You've been good. 546 00:43:22,816 --> 00:43:26,582 You're the only person who's ever been good to me and the baby. 547 00:43:26,654 --> 00:43:28,144 Just as if he was your own. 548 00:43:28,222 --> 00:43:29,587 All aboard. 549 00:43:46,740 --> 00:43:49,573 What is it that came between Father and me? 550 00:43:49,710 --> 00:43:52,645 Why couldn't I have shown him a little more consideration? 551 00:43:52,713 --> 00:43:54,874 Given him some pleasure while he was alive? 552 00:43:54,948 --> 00:43:57,883 It wouldn't have hurt me to come to his church once in a while. 553 00:43:57,951 --> 00:44:00,283 We always assume there's time... 554 00:44:00,788 --> 00:44:03,586 and that we can give love on our own terms. 555 00:44:03,657 --> 00:44:08,026 Then one day we wake up and find it's too late to give it on any terms. 556 00:44:12,366 --> 00:44:15,267 Will you go back to your life in The Hague? 557 00:44:15,936 --> 00:44:19,064 That's over. It was wrong from the beginning. 558 00:44:20,474 --> 00:44:24,103 Come to Paris, Vincent. We could live together. 559 00:44:25,879 --> 00:44:28,006 You're not the only one that's lonely. 560 00:44:28,082 --> 00:44:30,676 Not yet, Theo. Some day, but not now. 561 00:44:30,784 --> 00:44:33,685 You could meet other painters. See what they're doing. 562 00:44:33,754 --> 00:44:37,485 If I'm to be anything as a painter, I've got to break through the iron wall... 563 00:44:37,558 --> 00:44:40,391 between what I feel and what I can express. 564 00:44:41,462 --> 00:44:44,056 And my best chance of doing it is here... 565 00:44:44,131 --> 00:44:46,861 where my roots are, the people I know... 566 00:44:50,003 --> 00:44:51,595 the earth I know. 567 00:44:59,379 --> 00:45:03,611 <i>Dear Theo, thank you for the money, the paints, and canvas.</i> 568 00:45:04,451 --> 00:45:06,578 <i>With your help, I go forward.</i> 569 00:45:06,820 --> 00:45:09,983 <i>I feel the force to work growing daily within me.</i> 570 00:45:10,557 --> 00:45:13,754 <i>Do your realize, Theo, that what I'm doing is new?</i> 571 00:45:14,928 --> 00:45:17,453 <i>In the paintings of the old masters...</i> 572 00:45:17,531 --> 00:45:20,591 <i>did you ever see a single man or woman at work?</i> 573 00: