My Life Without Me

00:35:45,952 --> 00:35:48,154 that was writing in a journal the other day? 483 00:35:52,625 --> 00:35:54,160 Thanks for the jacket. 484 00:35:56,195 --> 00:35:57,230 It's yours, isn't it? 485 00:35:57,396 --> 00:35:59,165 Yeah, you can keep it if you want. 486 00:35:59,330 --> 00:36:03,134 It's mighty cold out there and I'm used to it. 487 00:36:03,302 --> 00:36:06,471 I was in Alaska for three years, I lived there, I mean, two and a half. 488 00:36:06,604 --> 00:36:07,605 It's all right. 489 00:36:08,840 --> 00:36:11,475 I really like the cold. It makes me feel really alive. 490 00:36:15,012 --> 00:36:17,615 I've got to run. I've got two young kids. You know how it is. 491 00:36:20,084 --> 00:36:21,052 Sure. 492 00:36:29,527 --> 00:36:30,327 Thanks. 493 00:36:33,730 --> 00:36:35,531 - I'll see you around. - My name's Lee. 494 00:36:36,666 --> 00:36:37,600 Ann. 495 00:36:50,546 --> 00:36:52,280 Are you sure that you don't need the jacket? 496 00:36:52,748 --> 00:36:54,715 No, no. Go ahead, take it. 497 00:36:56,117 --> 00:36:59,221 Okay. I've never been to Alaska. I always really liked the sound of it. 498 00:37:00,654 --> 00:37:03,557 - I'll bring the jacket back, don't worry. - No. I want you to have it. 499 00:37:03,991 --> 00:37:05,726 I like the idea of you wearing it. 500 00:37:06,360 --> 00:37:07,495 That's nice. 501 00:37:09,296 --> 00:37:10,998 I'll bring it back, don't worry. 502 00:37:46,798 --> 00:37:48,666 You see things clearly now. 503 00:37:49,834 --> 00:37:53,037 You see all these all these barrelled lifes, barrelled voices. 504 00:37:53,971 --> 00:37:55,839 Milli Vanilli everywhere. 505 00:37:57,474 --> 00:37:59,843 You look at all the things you can't buy, 506 00:38:00,211 --> 00:38:02,446 now you don't even wanna buy. 507 00:38:03,013 --> 00:38:05,782 All the things that will still be here after you're gone. 508 00:38:06,349 --> 00:38:07,817 When you're dead. 509 00:38:08,819 --> 00:38:11,454 And then you realize that all the things 510 00:38:11,621 --> 00:38:13,322 in the bright window displays, 511 00:38:13,857 --> 00:38:15,858 all the models in the catalogues, 512 00:38:16,025 --> 00:38:18,661 all the colours, all the special offers, 513 00:38:18,827 --> 00:38:20,829 all the Martha Stewart recipes, 514 00:38:20,996 --> 00:38:23,498 all the piles of greasy food, 515 00:38:24,065 --> 00:38:26,368 it's just all thereto try and keep us away from death. 516 00:38:27,202 --> 00:38:28,604 And it doesn't work. 517 00:38:30,905 --> 00:38:33,708 So, it turns out that she loved her daughter so much 518 00:38:33,875 --> 00:38:35,910 that she didn't tell her that she was her mother, 519 00:38:36,110 --> 00:38:37,478 because she didn't... 520 00:38:37,645 --> 00:38:39,714 she thought that would be better, 521 00:38:39,847 --> 00:38:41,915 the boy's parents would accept her better 522 00:38:42,082 --> 00:38:43,784 and the boy would ask her to marry him, 523 00:38:43,918 --> 00:38:45,986 which was what she wanted most in the whole world. 524 00:38:46,687 --> 00:38:48,321 But it was a huge sacrifice, 525 00:38:48,554 --> 00:38:50,723 and she suffered a whole lot, 526 00:38:53,360 --> 00:38:56,929 Mommy, Grandma told us a beautiful story about a mom 527 00:38:57,063 --> 00:39:00,266 who has lots of bad things happen to her, and it's really sad. 528 00:39:00,399 --> 00:39:02,167 Goodness, how unusual. 529 00:39:04,470 --> 00:39:05,671 I bathed them 530 00:39:05,837 --> 00:39:07,873 and Penny ate three slices of banana bread 531 00:39:08,040 --> 00:39:11,342 and Patsy drank some milk. Lately she's been kind of off it. 532 00:39:12,411 --> 00:39:14,546 Grandma's story's a movie, 533 00:39:14,713 --> 00:39:16,480 Mommy, and she says she likes it a lot. 534 00:39:16,648 --> 00:39:19,084 - Really? - Yeah, Joan Crawford. 535 00:39:19,350 --> 00:39:22,253 Joan Crawford, that's great! Okay, let's go, guys. 536 00:39:22,420 --> 00:39:25,656 Patsy, put that down. Patsy. We're going. 537 00:39:27,057 --> 00:39:30,561 I just wanted to keep them entertained, you know, so they don't watch so much TV. 538 00:39:30,895 --> 00:39:32,296 Next time I'll keep my mouth shut. 539 00:39:32,496 --> 00:39:34,897 Mommy, I don't want to go to school tomorrow. 540 00:39:35,065 --> 00:39:38,234 - I don't want to. - I know, I know. 541 00:39:38,935 --> 00:39:40,970 I said thanks, okay? So just drop it. 542 00:39:41,104 --> 00:39:44,307 - I don't need your thanks. - Okay, so I'll take them back then. 543 00:39:45,141 --> 00:39:48,444 All I did was watch your kids while you did your shopping. 544 00:39:48,578 --> 00:39:49,779 You asked me to. 545 00:39:49,946 --> 00:39:52,148 Yeah, I asked you to. I didn't ask you to fill their heads 546 00:39:52,314 --> 00:39:55,584 with stupid stories about mothers makin