My Cousin Rachel

00:35:21,995 --> 00:35:24,373 I spent one night there. 547 00:35:24,456 --> 00:35:26,959 The night of August the 15th. 548 00:35:27,042 --> 00:35:28,669 The night after I left. 549 00:35:28,752 --> 00:35:30,629 So Rainaldi told me. 550 00:35:32,172 --> 00:35:34,007 Why didn't you tell me? 551 00:35:34,091 --> 00:35:35,884 Why have you let me stay here two days 552 00:35:35,968 --> 00:35:37,386 without mentioning such a thing? 553 00:35:39,304 --> 00:35:41,181 I thought at first you knew. 554 00:35:43,016 --> 00:35:44,017 And... 555 00:35:46,562 --> 00:35:48,147 What did he tell you? 556 00:35:50,774 --> 00:35:52,818 I think you should read them yourself. 557 00:35:54,778 --> 00:35:57,865 The long one came first, then the short one. 558 00:36:00,576 --> 00:36:02,578 - Only these two? - That's all. 559 00:36:32,232 --> 00:36:34,234 How you must have hated me. 560 00:36:35,444 --> 00:36:36,528 Yes. 561 00:36:37,613 --> 00:36:39,531 Why did you ask me here? 562 00:36:39,615 --> 00:36:41,116 To accuse you. 563 00:36:41,200 --> 00:36:42,534 Of what? 564 00:36:42,618 --> 00:36:43,827 I'm not sure. 565 00:36:44,828 --> 00:36:46,830 Perhaps of breaking his heart, 566 00:36:47,414 --> 00:36:50,000 which would be murder, wouldn't it? 567 00:36:50,083 --> 00:36:51,168 And then? 568 00:36:51,251 --> 00:36:52,753 I hadn't planned beyond that. 569 00:36:52,836 --> 00:36:55,714 I knew only that I wanted to make you suffer 570 00:36:55,797 --> 00:36:58,342 and to watch you while you suffered. 571 00:36:58,425 --> 00:37:01,428 Then I suppose to— to let you go. 572 00:37:03,055 --> 00:37:05,474 That was merciful of you. 573 00:37:05,557 --> 00:37:07,809 More merciful than I should deserve. 574 00:37:08,894 --> 00:37:12,773 If that was what you wanted, watch me. 575 00:37:12,856 --> 00:37:14,483 Watch me now. 576 00:37:14,566 --> 00:37:17,611 Watch me as much as you wish. 577 00:37:17,694 --> 00:37:18,779 Please stop. 578 00:37:19,863 --> 00:37:20,948 Please! 579 00:37:30,624 --> 00:37:32,542 That's no use, either, 580 00:37:32,626 --> 00:37:34,753 when we both remember what he wrote. 581 00:37:38,757 --> 00:37:42,719 I can forget, if you will. 582 00:37:42,803 --> 00:37:44,638 But why should you? 583 00:37:44,721 --> 00:37:46,181 How do you know different? 584 00:37:46,265 --> 00:37:49,268 Because you are not that woman. You are not the woman I hated. 585 00:37:49,351 --> 00:37:53,105 That was someone who existed only in his poor, sick mind. 586 00:37:54,773 --> 00:37:57,067 That's very generous of you, Philip. 587 00:37:57,150 --> 00:37:59,027 I was a fool. 588 00:37:59,111 --> 00:38:02,281 No, not at all. 589 00:38:03,740 --> 00:38:07,828 Someday when I'm not so tired, I'd like to tell you about it— 590 00:38:07,911 --> 00:38:11,498 about Ambrose and myself and our marriage— 591 00:38:12,499 --> 00:38:15,210 as much of it as I understand anyway. 592 00:38:17,713 --> 00:38:20,507 I'd never even met a man like this— 593 00:38:20,590 --> 00:38:23,093 strong, tender, 594 00:38:23,176 --> 00:38:25,804 without conceit of any kind. 595 00:38:25,887 --> 00:38:27,931 And for the first time in my life, 596 00:38:28,015 --> 00:38:29,933 I knew what peace was. 597 00:38:30,017 --> 00:38:31,893 And as for him, 598 00:38:31,977 --> 00:38:36,773 he was like someone sleeping who'd wakened suddenly 599 00:38:36,857 --> 00:38:38,567 and found the world 600 00:38:38,650 --> 00:38:41,820 with all its beauty and sadness too. 601 00:38:42,904 --> 00:38:45,449 Guido Rainaldi, 602 00:38:45,532 --> 00:38:48,076 whom he detested as much as you probably do, 603 00:38:48,160 --> 00:38:50,412 Guido told me once that Ambrose wakened to me 604 00:38:50,495 --> 00:38:52,497 as some men waken to religion. 605 00:38:53,623 --> 00:38:56,668 But a woman, unhappily, is not religion. 606 00:38:56,752 --> 00:38:59,421 She's a human being with human thoughts, 607 00:38:59,504 --> 00:39:02,257 and she shouldn't be judged by the same rules. 608 00:39:02,341 --> 00:39:04,092 He expected too much of you? 609 00:39:05,761 --> 00:39:08,305 A halo can be a lovely thing, 610 00:39:08,388 --> 00:39:11,308 but you must be able to take it off now and again 611 00:39:11,391 --> 00:39:13,894 and be human occasionally. 612 00:39:13,977 --> 00:39:18,482 In any case, finding religion doesn't always improve a person. 613 00:39:18,565 --> 00:39:22,361 And waking to the world didn't help Ambrose. 614 00:39:23,612 --> 00:39:25,155 He changed. 615 00:39:26,656 --> 00:39:28,492 His nature changed. 616 00:39:28,575 --> 00:39:29,785 How? 617 00:39:31,995 --> 00:39:35,499 That's a question I wish from the bottom of my heart I could answer. 618 00:39:35,582 --> 00:39:37,709 The doctor said it was his illness, 619 00:39:37,793 --> 00:39:39,294 that out of pain and fear 620 00:39:39,378 --> 00:39:41,380 these deep hidden thoughts and suspicions 621 00:39:41,463 --> 00:39:43,465 came at long last to the surface. 622 00:39:44,466 --> 00:39:47,010 But how can I