Sound of My Voice

00:32:28,905 --> 00:32:30,828 Was it your father? 322 00:32:34,119 --> 00:32:36,372 Was it your mother? Shut up. 323 00:32:37,038 --> 00:32:39,632 Shut the fuck up, you fucking cunt. 324 00:32:59,603 --> 00:33:01,901 What are you hiding from me, Peter? 325 00:33:07,569 --> 00:33:09,571 She abandon you? 326 00:33:10,280 --> 00:33:13,079 She leave you to start another family? 327 00:33:13,783 --> 00:33:15,456 Was she a whore? I'll hit you. 328 00:33:15,619 --> 00:33:19,590 I'll hit you in the face. What'd she do to make you so angry? 329 00:33:19,748 --> 00:33:22,422 Shut up. This is so stupid. What'd she do to you? 330 00:33:23,919 --> 00:33:26,388 What'd she do to you? She gave up. 331 00:33:27,464 --> 00:33:28,511 She died. 332 00:33:30,091 --> 00:33:32,219 I was a kid. And she died. 333 00:33:33,512 --> 00:33:35,731 She's dead. Everybody happy? 334 00:33:45,774 --> 00:33:47,117 What happened next? 335 00:33:49,694 --> 00:33:51,913 You live with your dad? 336 00:33:54,616 --> 00:33:56,914 Did you live in a foster home? 337 00:33:57,285 --> 00:34:00,789 No. Who took care of you? 338 00:34:03,208 --> 00:34:05,051 My grandparents. 339 00:34:07,337 --> 00:34:09,465 I see. 340 00:34:14,010 --> 00:34:17,139 You were a good-looking kid, weren't you? 341 00:34:19,641 --> 00:34:21,689 You're handsome now. 342 00:34:25,063 --> 00:34:28,033 But you must have been beautiful then. 343 00:34:31,653 --> 00:34:34,156 You were in a new house. 344 00:34:36,575 --> 00:34:38,794 A new bedroom. 345 00:34:38,952 --> 00:34:41,250 You felt abandoned. 346 00:34:42,163 --> 00:34:45,633 Angry. Unloved. 347 00:34:50,171 --> 00:34:52,640 Did he come to you at night? 348 00:34:54,634 --> 00:34:57,513 No, of course not. 349 00:34:57,679 --> 00:35:00,307 She watched him like a hawk, didn't she? 350 00:35:08,023 --> 00:35:10,117 He wait for you after school? 351 00:35:14,904 --> 00:35:17,407 You were all alone. 352 00:35:18,908 --> 00:35:22,037 Fresh as the fallen snow. 353 00:35:23,038 --> 00:35:25,132 And he knew. 354 00:35:29,919 --> 00:35:31,887 Did he make you swallow his poison? 355 00:35:52,692 --> 00:35:55,195 You were powerless then. 356 00:35:57,030 --> 00:35:59,533 But you're not anymore. 357 00:36:00,992 --> 00:36:06,089 You can let go of it, here, with us. 358 00:36:06,915 --> 00:36:08,258 Peter. 359 00:36:09,292 --> 00:36:12,762 It's not my choice, it's yours. 360 00:36:20,762 --> 00:36:22,560 Let it go. 361 00:36:24,099 --> 00:36:25,442 [PETER COUGHS] 362 00:36:38,154 --> 00:36:39,280 You're brave. 363 00:37:14,733 --> 00:37:16,406 Thank you. 364 00:37:25,994 --> 00:37:27,746 Are you okay? 365 00:37:27,912 --> 00:37:31,542 Mm-hm. Yeah, I'm fine. 366 00:37:41,259 --> 00:37:43,512 Okay. I know that we just wanna start our day... 367 00:37:43,678 --> 00:37:46,397 ...but if we don't talk about it... Talk about what? 368 00:37:46,556 --> 00:37:50,026 What do you wanna talk about? I don't know. I mean... 369 00:37:52,937 --> 00:37:54,530 I guess I've never seen you cry. 370 00:37:56,399 --> 00:37:57,946 Those weren't real tears. 371 00:37:58,526 --> 00:38:01,370 But they weren't fake. Yes, they were. They were fake tears. 372 00:38:01,529 --> 00:38:05,534 She's a megalomaniac, Lorna. She knew things about you. 373 00:38:05,700 --> 00:38:09,546 No. She didn't know anything about me. She asked questions about me. 374 00:38:09,704 --> 00:38:13,959 She wanted to be right and I let her think she was. 375 00:38:14,125 --> 00:38:16,878 So all that stuff was--? It was not true. 376 00:38:17,504 --> 00:38:19,552 Come on. Of course it wasn't true. 377 00:38:23,259 --> 00:38:25,057 I'm sorry. 378 00:38:25,720 --> 00:38:27,222 I'm sorry If I scared you... 379 00:38:27,388 --> 00:38:30,813 ...but I had to do what I had to do to get us out of there. 380 00:38:31,518 --> 00:38:35,239 Peter, I just feel like we're in over our heads with this whole thing, you know? 381 00:38:35,647 --> 00:38:40,448 It's like we started out wanting to make a documentary on cults. 382 00:38:41,444 --> 00:38:45,244 And now we're in one? Yeah. That's investigative journalism. 383 00:38:46,032 --> 00:38:50,128 She's dangerous, Peter. You said that yourself. 384 00:38:50,829 --> 00:38:54,083 What do you wanna do? You wanna go back to our normal lives. 385 00:38:54,249 --> 00:38:57,002 That's fine. We can do that. I can teach all day. 386 00:38:57,168 --> 00:38:59,671 You can stay home and write and surf the web. 387 00:38:59,838 --> 00:39:03,638 And on the weekends we can get wasted at various art installations... 388 00:39:03,800 --> 00:39:06,474 ...or sneak forties into random foreign films. 389 00:39:06,636 --> 00:39:10,436 And then it's suddenly, like, we wake up and, whoops, where did our 20s go? 390 00:39:10,598 --> 00:39:12,600 But