I Smile Back

with the daddy issues 330 00:30:49,615 --> 00:30:53,016 because it's a very organic segue into the drugs. 331 00:30:56,487 --> 00:31:01,091 Well, mine's boring. My dad left when I was nine. 332 00:31:01,093 --> 00:31:03,060 That's the whole story. 333 00:31:03,062 --> 00:31:05,929 He kissed me goodnight, and that's the last time I saw him. 334 00:31:06,931 --> 00:31:09,266 So, drugs? 335 00:31:09,268 --> 00:31:11,635 Yeah, we'll get to that. 336 00:31:11,637 --> 00:31:14,571 Can you tell me why you haven't spoken again? 337 00:31:14,573 --> 00:31:16,974 Um, he didn't call me. 338 00:31:16,976 --> 00:31:19,009 Why didn't you call him? 339 00:31:19,011 --> 00:31:22,145 Because I didn't know where he lived. 340 00:31:23,147 --> 00:31:24,214 Ah. 341 00:31:28,887 --> 00:31:33,123 He's upstate. My brother told me. 342 00:31:33,125 --> 00:31:35,225 So, your brother talks to him? He does. 343 00:31:36,327 --> 00:31:40,030 Or he did. I don't know. 344 00:31:40,032 --> 00:31:43,367 We um, we don't talk about Dad anymore because, um, 345 00:31:43,369 --> 00:31:45,435 it always ends up in a fight. 346 00:31:49,173 --> 00:31:52,910 When he left my mother, she was devastated. 347 00:31:52,912 --> 00:31:57,114 So, I... I held onto that. 348 00:31:57,116 --> 00:32:00,450 And he 349 00:32:00,452 --> 00:32:03,186 didn't, I guess. 350 00:32:03,188 --> 00:32:05,088 Did she remarry? Mmm-hmm. 351 00:32:05,090 --> 00:32:08,959 Yeah, a few years later. 352 00:32:08,961 --> 00:32:10,961 Why didn't you call him then? 353 00:32:10,963 --> 00:32:14,665 Why don't you ask him why he didn't call me? 354 00:32:14,667 --> 00:32:16,133 Why do you think he didn't call you? 355 00:32:30,982 --> 00:32:32,983 Can we talk about the drugs now? 356 00:32:43,728 --> 00:32:45,162 <i>Hello? Hi!</i> 357 00:32:45,164 --> 00:32:47,197 <i>Hey, how's it going?</i> 358 00:32:47,199 --> 00:32:50,534 Good! It's going... It's going well. 359 00:32:50,536 --> 00:32:52,436 How are you? <i>Good.</i> 360 00:32:52,438 --> 00:32:55,439 <i>The kids are wiped out. Getting ready for bed.</i> 361 00:32:55,441 --> 00:32:56,740 <i>It was a big day ice skating.</i> 362 00:32:56,742 --> 00:32:58,742 You went ice skating, without me? 363 00:32:58,744 --> 00:33:00,077 <i>Laney, I...</i> 364 00:33:00,079 --> 00:33:02,546 I just... It's just... 365 00:33:02,548 --> 00:33:06,149 We always go together, I mean, it's kind of our thing. 366 00:33:06,151 --> 00:33:08,452 <i>Yeah, I know, Laney. But you're not here.</i> 367 00:33:08,454 --> 00:33:10,654 <i>Would you rather I didn't take them?</i> 368 00:33:10,656 --> 00:33:12,589 No. 369 00:33:12,591 --> 00:33:14,424 No, I just... I should've been there. 370 00:33:14,426 --> 00:33:16,326 <i>I know, and you'll take them next year.</i> 371 00:33:19,364 --> 00:33:21,999 <i>Just focus on getting better, the kids need you. I need you.</i> 372 00:33:24,469 --> 00:33:26,303 <i>I'm sorry. I got to go.</i> 373 00:33:26,305 --> 00:33:27,738 Can I say good night to the kids? 374 00:33:27,740 --> 00:33:30,741 <i>I don't want to upset them before bed.</i> 375 00:33:30,743 --> 00:33:32,442 <i>We'll see you at the family visit.</i> 376 00:33:32,444 --> 00:33:34,344 <i>I'm sorry, Laney, I...</i> 377 00:33:34,346 --> 00:33:37,214 <i>I have to go. I love you. We all love you.</i> 378 00:33:37,216 --> 00:33:38,216 <i>We miss you here.</i> 379 00:33:38,217 --> 00:33:39,750 I love you too. 380 00:33:58,436 --> 00:34:01,338 You look good. 381 00:34:01,340 --> 00:34:02,340 Feeling better? 382 00:34:02,341 --> 00:34:04,374 I am. 383 00:34:06,244 --> 00:34:08,211 You seem like you're making progress. 384 00:34:09,347 --> 00:34:11,581 Yeah. 385 00:34:11,583 --> 00:34:14,317 Why don't you say what you're really thinking, Bruce? 386 00:34:14,319 --> 00:34:16,353 What? I don't understand why you're so angry. 387 00:34:16,355 --> 00:34:19,756 I'm not... 388 00:34:19,758 --> 00:34:25,195 What? I'm not angry! I'm not angry. I'm scared. 389 00:34:25,197 --> 00:34:29,566 What are you scared of? Everything! 390 00:34:29,568 --> 00:34:32,803 I know you think that if I take my medication every day, 391 00:34:32,805 --> 00:34:34,371 that everything will go back to normal. 392 00:34:34,373 --> 00:34:37,441 But it's bigger than that. 393 00:34:43,815 --> 00:34:46,483 What is Eli doing with his eyes? 394 00:34:46,485 --> 00:34:47,851 Have you noticed that? 395 00:34:47,853 --> 00:34:49,152 No. 396 00:34:52,657 --> 00:34:54,791 Is he doing that at school? 397 00:34:54,793 --> 00:34:56,593 I don't know. No one's called me about it. 398 00:34:56,595 --> 00:34:59,329 You can't wait for someone to call you about it! 399 00:34:59,331 --> 00:35:02,132 You have to call them. Kids could be making fun of him. 400 00:35:02,134 --> 00:35:05,