Louder Than Bombs

00:34:14,880 --> 00:34:16,720 <i>The odor of tobacco and urine.</i> 443 00:34:16,720 --> 00:34:18,230 <i>Phones with large dials.</i> 444 00:34:18,230 --> 00:34:20,640 <i>Dying slowly of throat cancer.</i> 445 00:34:22,090 --> 00:34:23,500 What's so funny? 446 00:34:23,530 --> 00:34:25,780 Nothing, nothing, not really. Nothing 447 00:34:42,020 --> 00:34:43,640 Thank you. 448 00:34:47,610 --> 00:34:49,770 - Can I tell you something. - Yeah. 449 00:34:49,860 --> 00:34:52,070 I shouldn't be really telling you this but fuck it. 450 00:34:53,060 --> 00:34:54,190 This... 451 00:34:54,710 --> 00:34:56,770 ... is the first time that I've slept 452 00:34:56,770 --> 00:34:58,220 with somebody. 453 00:34:58,510 --> 00:35:01,780 Probably since my wife passed away which was 2 years ago. 454 00:35:02,620 --> 00:35:03,600 Probably? 455 00:35:04,080 --> 00:35:06,610 Well, there were one or two... 456 00:35:07,130 --> 00:35:09,690 - Incidences. - Improper ones. 457 00:35:10,260 --> 00:35:11,180 I was... 458 00:35:11,540 --> 00:35:13,350 I was too tense. 459 00:35:13,470 --> 00:35:14,240 Hm. 460 00:35:15,800 --> 00:35:17,420 Yeah, you know, it's just... 461 00:35:18,160 --> 00:35:20,030 You know, when you get older 462 00:35:20,030 --> 00:35:22,660 you're just more conscious of your body and the way it... 463 00:35:39,170 --> 00:35:41,480 It's getting weird sneaking around like this. 464 00:35:42,980 --> 00:35:44,210 It's uncomfortable, 465 00:35:44,260 --> 00:35:47,270 looking at Conrad in class and pretending he's just like the other kids. 466 00:35:49,760 --> 00:35:50,660 Yeah. 467 00:36:01,230 --> 00:36:03,240 <i>It was early and freezing. </i> 468 00:36:05,540 --> 00:36:07,080 <i>There was a group of men,</i> 469 00:36:07,080 --> 00:36:09,720 <i>preparing the burial of a young boy. </i> 470 00:36:10,150 --> 00:36:12,070 <i>Children were dying daily. </i> 471 00:36:13,060 --> 00:36:15,180 <i>I felt I had to get this one right. </i> 472 00:36:15,540 --> 00:36:18,820 <i>That this might convey something about what was going on. </i> 473 00:36:20,910 --> 00:36:22,460 <i>And there was this, </i> 474 00:36:23,130 --> 00:36:24,030 <i>man.</i> 475 00:36:24,210 --> 00:36:26,130 <i>I thought he had to be the boy's father.</i> 476 00:36:27,560 --> 00:36:30,060 <i>I was searching for some sign that it was okay to be there.</i> 477 00:36:30,060 --> 00:36:32,060 <i>That he accepted me. </i> 478 00:36:34,300 --> 00:36:37,050 <i>I'm faced with this every time. </i> 479 00:36:37,940 --> 00:36:40,320 <i>Can I take a photo that tells their story? </i> 480 00:36:40,480 --> 00:36:42,580 <i>The way they would if they could tell it? </i> 481 00:36:42,920 --> 00:36:44,570 <i>And is that my job? </i> 482 00:36:44,970 --> 00:36:48,950 <i>Or, shouldn't I instead use this family to tell something bigger and</i> 483 00:36:48,950 --> 00:36:50,950 <i>in some ways more important? </i> 484 00:36:51,750 --> 00:36:54,440 <i>At the risk of reducing them to an example, </i> 485 00:36:54,840 --> 00:36:55,800 <i>to victims. </i> 486 00:37:02,410 --> 00:37:05,050 <i>In times of war or extreme poverty, </i> 487 00:37:05,530 --> 00:37:08,850 <i>the codes for civilized behavior are suspended. </i> 488 00:37:10,690 --> 00:37:12,290 <i>And so-called normal life, </i> 489 00:37:12,290 --> 00:37:15,810 <i>nobody would go to a house where people are grieving and photograph them. </i> 490 00:37:19,310 --> 00:37:21,170 <i>I try to approach people with respect. </i> 491 00:37:21,170 --> 00:37:22,840 <i>I try not to speak to loud. </i> 492 00:37:23,130 --> 00:37:24,340 <i>Or move to fast. </i> 493 00:37:26,260 --> 00:37:28,050 <i>I want to be open.</i> 494 00:37:29,110 --> 00:37:31,940 <i>I want to feel open in my heart toward them. </i> 495 00:37:32,240 --> 00:37:33,760 <i>And,</i> 496 00:37:34,160 --> 00:37:35,310 <i>they do sense it. </i> 497 00:37:36,740 --> 00:37:38,690 <i>Even with no words at all. </i> 498 00:38:30,470 --> 00:38:31,790 Hey, buddy. 499 00:38:33,670 --> 00:38:35,100 Hey, come sit down. 500 00:38:40,730 --> 00:38:42,490 Hey, I just wanted to talk to you. 501 00:38:44,510 --> 00:38:46,610 And I wanted to know, um, if, 502 00:38:48,810 --> 00:38:51,080 if you ever think about mom? 503 00:38:52,510 --> 00:38:54,980 Do you ever think about the car accident? 504 00:38:55,480 --> 00:38:56,800 Why? 505 00:38:57,040 --> 00:38:57,810 Well, 506 00:38:58,320 --> 00:39:01,330 there's no story in a car accident, you know. 507 00:39:01,330 --> 00:39:02,340 So people, 508 00:39:02,740 --> 00:39:04,980 People have to make one up, they have to invent something, 509 00:39:04,980 --> 00:39:06,980 that they have something to blame or something. 510 00:39:07,000 --> 00:39:08,360 - You know? - Hello? 511 00:39:08,4