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I just think you have a very good opportunity now 616 00:33:02,606 --> 00:33:03,273 to get through 617 00:33:03,607 --> 00:33:05,126 some of the trauma and anguish you've been suffering from 618 00:33:05,150 --> 00:33:06,693 for such a long time. 619 00:33:08,320 --> 00:33:10,197 - I do got trauma, huh? 620 00:33:10,530 --> 00:33:13,241 - Let's not kid ourselves, Vanessa. 621 00:33:15,202 --> 00:33:16,828 - I've been so anguished, 622 00:33:17,162 --> 00:33:19,873 I can't even remember being happy. 623 00:33:20,207 --> 00:33:23,001 - Vanessa, you have to look this pain in the eye. 624 00:33:23,335 --> 00:33:27,130 Otherwise, it could rule over every aspect of your life. 625 00:33:27,464 --> 00:33:29,549 Now, I think I can help you, 626 00:33:29,883 --> 00:33:32,761 but you're going to have to trust me. 627 00:33:33,720 --> 00:33:36,473 You're going to have to let me in. 628 00:33:40,602 --> 00:33:42,562 My god you're cold. 629 00:33:42,896 --> 00:33:46,608 - Just thinking about my fucked up life is all. 630 00:33:53,907 --> 00:33:54,907 - Let's go. 631 00:33:57,452 --> 00:33:59,621 I'm sorry. 632 00:33:59,955 --> 00:34:01,790 Here I'm blubbering like a big old baby, 633 00:34:02,123 --> 00:34:03,708 and you're just trying to help me. 634 00:34:04,042 --> 00:34:07,295 - Vanessa, Vanessa, just take your time. 635 00:34:07,629 --> 00:34:08,672 Take your time. 636 00:34:17,722 --> 00:34:20,809 - I was 11 when Larry first hit on me. 637 00:34:23,228 --> 00:34:25,063 - Where was your mother? 638 00:34:25,397 --> 00:34:27,524 - Some stupid halfway house. 639 00:34:30,652 --> 00:34:33,363 - How did the abuse begin? 640 00:34:33,697 --> 00:34:35,865 - With my mamma gone, I had all these extra chores 641 00:34:36,199 --> 00:34:38,201 I had to do, like the laundry, 642 00:34:38,535 --> 00:34:40,328 the groceries and things like that. 643 00:34:40,662 --> 00:34:42,872 - So, in effect you became the woman of the house. 644 00:34:43,206 --> 00:34:44,206 - Yeah. 645 00:34:45,000 --> 00:34:46,167 Yeah. 646 00:34:46,501 --> 00:34:48,378 I was so proud of myself. 647 00:34:50,213 --> 00:34:53,258 And then this one night, we was watching TV after dinner, 648 00:34:53,592 --> 00:34:57,387 like we always do, and that's when Larry told me 649 00:34:58,430 --> 00:35:00,974 one of mamma's chores had always been 650 00:35:01,308 --> 00:35:03,518 to massage his you know what. 651 00:35:06,021 --> 00:35:08,565 - Did Larry expose himself to you? 652 00:35:08,898 --> 00:35:10,609 - All through the show. 653 00:35:11,901 --> 00:35:14,571 - Did Larry have an erection? 654 00:35:14,904 --> 00:35:16,948 - That's putting it mildly. 655 00:35:18,491 --> 00:35:21,911 - Did he ask you to perform oral sex for him? 656 00:35:22,245 --> 00:35:24,581 - At first, I mean, he just had me hold on 657 00:35:24,914 --> 00:35:26,666 to his you know what 658 00:35:27,000 --> 00:35:29,669 during whatever happened to be on TV. 659 00:35:30,003 --> 00:35:32,881 He didn't get around to the other thing you just mentioned 660 00:35:33,214 --> 00:35:34,214 for a while. 661 00:35:36,051 --> 00:35:38,371 I guess he figured if he went all slow I wouldn't freak out 662 00:35:38,678 --> 00:35:40,388 and get him in trouble. 663 00:35:41,306 --> 00:35:42,826 But back then I didn't know that stuff 664 00:35:43,141 --> 00:35:44,309 we was doing was criminal. 665 00:35:44,643 --> 00:35:46,394 - Vanessa, victims often blame themselves. 666 00:35:46,728 --> 00:35:48,438 ”Is a common occurrence. 667 00:35:48,772 --> 00:35:49,981 Make no mistake about it. 668 00:35:50,315 --> 00:35:51,691 You are the victim. 669 00:35:53,151 --> 00:35:53,818 - Really, Bob? 670 00:35:54,152 --> 00:35:55,152 - Absolutely. 671 00:35:56,363 --> 00:35:58,243 - I was such a baby back then I didn't even know 672 00:35:58,531 --> 00:36:00,211 why men wanted all that stuff done to them 673 00:36:00,408 --> 00:36:01,076 in the first place. 674 00:36:01,409 --> 00:36:03,745 - Vanessa, my god, you were a child. 675 00:36:04,079 --> 00:36:06,456 You must have been so confused. 676 00:36:08,124 --> 00:36:11,252 - And when he did that thing that you mentioned 677 00:36:11,586 --> 00:36:15,507 for the first time, I swear to Christ I thought he was going 678 00:36:15,840 --> 00:36:17,967 to the bathroom in my mouth. 679 00:36:23,807 --> 00:36:27,769 - Vanessa, do I have your absolute trust? 680 00:36:29,312 --> 00:36:31,512 - I guess I trust you more than I've ever trusted anyone 681 00:36:31,773 --> 00:36:33,400 in my whole life, Bob. 682 00:36:34,359 --> 00:36:36,194 And I really mean that. 683 00:36:37,153 --> 00:36:38,153 - Thank you. 684 00:36:38,446 --> 00:36:40,740 The reason why I'm asking is this very powerful new 685 00:36:41,074 --> 00:36:43,827 psychological technique that I'd like to try on you. 686 00:36:44,160 --> 00:36:46,413 I think it could really help you. 687 00:36:46,746 --> 00:36:47,288 What do you think? 688 00:36:47,622 --> 00:36:48,998 Would you like to give it a try