In the Name of the Father

710 00:44:28,416 --> 00:44:29,916 No, I did not! 711 00:44:34,714 --> 00:44:37,716 Of course I fucking didn't do it, fuck's sake! 712 00:44:45,099 --> 00:44:46,600 (EXHALES DEEPLY) 713 00:44:48,186 --> 00:44:49,561 Why are you looking at me like that? 714 00:44:50,104 --> 00:44:51,104 What? 715 00:44:55,068 --> 00:44:56,193 Why are you looking at me like that? 716 00:44:56,277 --> 00:44:57,361 Like what? 717 00:44:57,653 --> 00:45:00,906 Why do you always follow me? Huh? 718 00:45:02,658 --> 00:45:05,327 Why do you always follow me when I do something wrong? 719 00:45:05,411 --> 00:45:08,121 Why can't you follow me when I do something right? 720 00:45:08,373 --> 00:45:09,539 What are you talking about? 721 00:45:09,999 --> 00:45:12,125 Huh? What am I talking about? I'm talking about the medal. 722 00:45:12,335 --> 00:45:13,585 What medal? 723 00:45:13,669 --> 00:45:15,712 What fucking medal? What fucking medal? 724 00:45:15,797 --> 00:45:18,340 The only fucking medal that was ever in our house. 725 00:45:18,424 --> 00:45:20,175 That fucking medal. 726 00:45:20,510 --> 00:45:22,636 The medal I won at football. 727 00:45:23,346 --> 00:45:25,639 And you sat on the sidelines shouting instructions, 728 00:45:25,723 --> 00:45:27,057 like you could only see what I was doing... 729 00:45:27,141 --> 00:45:29,726 You couldn't even fucking play football 730 00:45:29,811 --> 00:45:32,479 and you could only see what I was doing wrong. 731 00:45:32,563 --> 00:45:34,523 I could never do anything good enough for you. 732 00:45:34,607 --> 00:45:37,526 And after the game, you came up to me and you said... 733 00:45:37,610 --> 00:45:40,362 You said, "Gerry, did you foul the ball?" 734 00:45:40,655 --> 00:45:42,364 And I walked away from you, do you remember now? 735 00:45:42,448 --> 00:45:44,157 I walked away from you into the dressing room. 736 00:45:44,242 --> 00:45:47,411 You followed me in there and you said again, "Gerry, did you foul the ball?" 737 00:45:47,495 --> 00:45:48,662 And all the other fathers were in there. 738 00:45:48,746 --> 00:45:51,748 They were laughing at you, calling you "Poor Guiseppe." 739 00:45:51,833 --> 00:45:55,252 And I ran out, and I hid, and I wrote your name on the ground, 740 00:45:55,336 --> 00:45:57,129 your stupid Guiseppe fucking name, 741 00:45:57,213 --> 00:46:00,507 I wrote it in the dirt, and I fucking pissed on it! 742 00:46:01,634 --> 00:46:03,260 I pissed on it... 743 00:46:03,928 --> 00:46:06,096 Because I did foul the ball. 744 00:46:06,514 --> 00:46:10,016 What did it matter? We won. For once in our lives, we won. 745 00:46:10,143 --> 00:46:11,393 You ruined that medal for me! 746 00:46:11,477 --> 00:46:13,353 I took it to the pawn, and they laughed at me. 747 00:46:13,438 --> 00:46:14,896 They wouldn't give me 50 pence for it. 748 00:46:14,981 --> 00:46:16,022 This is shock. 749 00:46:16,357 --> 00:46:20,193 And that's when I started to rob, to prove that I was no good. 750 00:46:20,528 --> 00:46:21,528 Delayed shock. 751 00:46:21,612 --> 00:46:22,779 Delayed shock. Never mind delayed shock. 752 00:46:22,864 --> 00:46:25,490 I've been like this since I was seven. 753 00:46:25,783 --> 00:46:28,702 I remember Mummy said to me, "Don't upset Guiseppe. He's not well." 754 00:46:28,786 --> 00:46:30,370 (WHISPERING) Oh, dear Lord, he's not well. 755 00:46:30,455 --> 00:46:31,705 So we'd tiptoe around the house. 756 00:46:31,789 --> 00:46:34,124 Like this, tiptoeing around the house. 757 00:46:34,208 --> 00:46:35,959 "Not well, you know. He's not well." 758 00:46:36,043 --> 00:46:38,712 Then I got Holy Communion. I thought I was eating you alive. 759 00:46:38,796 --> 00:46:41,548 I mean, is it my fault you weren't well? 760 00:46:41,632 --> 00:46:44,176 Why did you have to be sick all your life, Guiseppe? 761 00:46:44,260 --> 00:46:46,303 Why did you have to be sick all your life for? 762 00:46:46,679 --> 00:46:50,140 When that mad bastard out there threatened to shoot you, I was happy. 763 00:46:50,224 --> 00:46:52,225 I swear to God. Honest to God, I was happy. 764 00:46:52,310 --> 00:46:53,685 I was delighted! You know why? 765 00:46:53,769 --> 00:46:54,978 Because finally it was all over. 766 00:46:55,062 --> 00:46:57,147 It was over! You see? 767 00:46:58,566 --> 00:47:00,567 And then I knew I was bad. 768 00:47:00,651 --> 00:47:03,445 I knew I was bad then, you see, so I started to cry. 769 00:47:03,529 --> 00:47:05,822 I started to tell lies, the same fucking lies 770 00:47:05,907 --> 00:47:09,034 I've been telling all my gobshite fucking life. 771 00:47:09,577 --> 00:47:10,744 (BABBLING) 772 00:47:14,665 --> 00:47:16,583 Do you know what that mean? It means words don't mean nothing. 773 00:47:16,667 --> 00:47:17,667 Stop this. 774 00:47:17,752 --> 00:47:20,045 Huh? Only this time, I got everyone into trouble. 775 00:47:20,129 --> 00:47:21,838 But it doesn't matter, does it? 'Cause I'm no good anyhow. 776 00:47:21,923...