Love, Antosha

and she'll be right there looking at me, like... 650 00:35:57,500 --> 00:35:59,280 You're lucky, you know that? 651 00:36:00,370 --> 00:36:01,680 Yeah, I know. 652 00:36:20,740 --> 00:36:21,740 ...what he had. 653 00:36:24,090 --> 00:36:27,660 My brain is now distinctly fucking jumbled, 654 00:36:27,750 --> 00:36:29,180 or not so much. 655 00:36:29,270 --> 00:36:30,970 Actually, not really. 656 00:36:31,050 --> 00:36:32,320 Not at all. 657 00:36:32,400 --> 00:36:33,880 The sun is still shining. 658 00:36:38,320 --> 00:36:39,840 He was a list man. 659 00:36:39,930 --> 00:36:41,370 He always had a list on him. 660 00:36:41,460 --> 00:36:43,980 He's like, "Mary! I'm so glad you're here. 661 00:36:44,070 --> 00:36:47,200 I have so many things I want to talk to you about." 662 00:36:47,290 --> 00:36:48,550 So we would just like get into 663 00:36:48,640 --> 00:36:50,810 these great conversations about... 664 00:36:50,900 --> 00:36:53,900 You know, how he could do things and still live his life. 665 00:37:15,360 --> 00:37:17,010 Numerous times a day, 666 00:37:17,100 --> 00:37:19,320 he'd have to be hooked up to a breathing machine 667 00:37:19,410 --> 00:37:21,500 that he'd, you know, would have to literally just, 668 00:37:21,580 --> 00:37:24,500 just pounce against his lungs and cough up mucus, 669 00:37:24,590 --> 00:37:27,330 and then have to go outside, and put on a smile, 670 00:37:27,410 --> 00:37:31,370 and through that, also wanted to keep that inside 671 00:37:31,460 --> 00:37:32,720 and not tell anyone. 672 00:37:34,510 --> 00:37:36,680 A call time is usually... 673 00:37:36,770 --> 00:37:38,120 bright and early. 674 00:37:38,210 --> 00:37:39,080 He had to do his breathing exercise 675 00:37:39,160 --> 00:37:40,780 like two hours before, 676 00:37:40,860 --> 00:37:42,730 just to get himself prepared to start the day. 677 00:37:44,430 --> 00:37:46,350 Nobody knew that but Anton. 678 00:37:46,430 --> 00:37:48,350 Nobody knew that. 679 00:37:48,440 --> 00:37:50,390 People are finding out right now, actually. 680 00:37:50,480 --> 00:37:52,310 You know? This is insane. 681 00:37:58,310 --> 00:38:00,530 Fatty, why are you doing this? 682 00:38:01,930 --> 00:38:04,230 Well, go on. Go on, tell us. 683 00:38:04,320 --> 00:38:06,710 Well, the Captain wants to know why. 684 00:38:06,800 --> 00:38:07,800 Well? 685 00:38:09,460 --> 00:38:11,810 Fatty, don't be such a pussy. 686 00:38:11,890 --> 00:38:14,370 I had arranged to meet with Anton. 687 00:38:14,460 --> 00:38:16,900 Or I think Irina drove him over and dropped him off 688 00:38:16,990 --> 00:38:18,770 and we sat down. 689 00:38:18,860 --> 00:38:21,860 And I said, "So, you know, what... 690 00:38:21,950 --> 00:38:23,730 Why do you wanna play Charlie Bartlett? 691 00:38:23,820 --> 00:38:27,080 What is it you like about the character or the movie?" 692 00:38:27,170 --> 00:38:28,520 And the first thing he said is, 693 00:38:28,610 --> 00:38:30,910 "I like how honest he is, 694 00:38:31,000 --> 00:38:32,440 and... 695 00:38:32,520 --> 00:38:36,000 how he wants to do things for his friends. 696 00:38:36,090 --> 00:38:37,830 He wants to take care of people." 697 00:38:37,920 --> 00:38:41,010 Great fucking time on my birthday. 698 00:38:41,100 --> 00:38:42,710 It is going to be a great... 699 00:38:42,790 --> 00:38:44,970 I can't even fucking see behind your fucking head, 700 00:38:45,060 --> 00:38:46,360 you fucking hippie. 701 00:38:47,320 --> 00:38:49,840 Marlon, I love you, dude. 702 00:38:49,930 --> 00:38:51,060 Guys, give me it. 703 00:38:51,150 --> 00:38:52,410 You motherfucking fucks. 704 00:38:52,500 --> 00:38:54,590 I have a small growth 705 00:38:54,680 --> 00:38:56,150 on one of the ventricles of my brain. 706 00:38:56,240 --> 00:38:59,420 To date, I've had four brain surgeries. 707 00:38:59,510 --> 00:39:02,120 Anton was one of the very, very few people 708 00:39:02,200 --> 00:39:03,640 that knew that about me. 709 00:39:03,730 --> 00:39:05,730 He would always be very concerned. 710 00:39:05,820 --> 00:39:08,430 He knew instantly when things weren't right. 711 00:39:08,520 --> 00:39:11,610 Because of him, and because of our friendship 712 00:39:11,690 --> 00:39:14,830 that I was able to be a bit more 713 00:39:14,910 --> 00:39:17,920 accepting of the circumstances I was in. 714 00:39:18,000 --> 00:39:20,700 If you can explain what you're doing. 715 00:39:20,790 --> 00:39:22,180 Or better yet, why you're doing it, 716 00:39:22,270 --> 00:39:24,230 that would be a good start. 717 00:39:24,310 --> 00:39:26,490 Look, I'm helping these kids, okay? 718 00:39:26,580 --> 00:39:28,840 Nobody else is listening to them. 719 00:39:28,930 --> 00:39:31,060 Charlie could be the loneliest of people, 720 00:39:31,150 --> 00