Billie Eilish: The World's a Little Blurry

Like, walking right now is so painful. 836 00:43:49,046 --> 00:43:51,340 There. How to do it. 837 00:43:54,218 --> 00:43:57,221 I'm afraid I'll wake up and I won't have any of this anymore. 838 00:44:01,517 --> 00:44:04,895 [Billie] Everything I've ever loved, I've had to quit. 839 00:44:10,567 --> 00:44:13,237 I used to dance, like, 12 hours a week. 840 00:44:20,118 --> 00:44:21,537 And then I got injured. 841 00:44:22,579 --> 00:44:25,624 I tore my growth plate in my hip. 842 00:44:25,707 --> 00:44:27,793 The bone separated from the muscle. 843 00:44:29,002 --> 00:44:31,129 It was the most depressing year of my life. 844 00:44:32,172 --> 00:44:34,216 I just laid in bed. I couldn't move. 845 00:44:36,301 --> 00:44:38,053 Since then I have not danced. 846 00:44:46,395 --> 00:44:48,772 -Do you want a hand, Patrick? -Yeah, one second. 847 00:44:52,818 --> 00:44:55,195 [Billie] My little announcement before we move on. 848 00:44:55,279 --> 00:44:57,281 I have shin splints... 849 00:44:58,031 --> 00:45:00,784 and I threw my neck out. 850 00:45:00,868 --> 00:45:03,078 So-- Listen though, listen. 851 00:45:03,579 --> 00:45:06,290 It hurts really bad to jump, but I'm a dumbass, so I'm gonna jump. 852 00:45:07,416 --> 00:45:10,794 ♪ My boy, my boy, my boy ♪ 853 00:45:11,795 --> 00:45:15,632 ♪ He ain't a man and sure as hell-- ♪ [chuckles] 854 00:45:16,300 --> 00:45:17,593 [cheering] 855 00:45:17,676 --> 00:45:22,097 ♪ My boy, my boy, my boy ♪ 856 00:45:22,181 --> 00:45:26,310 [crowd] ♪ Don't love me like he promised ♪ 857 00:45:27,853 --> 00:45:31,565 ♪ My boy, my boy, my boy ♪ 858 00:45:31,648 --> 00:45:34,234 -[Billie] Ow! [chuckles] -[Mom] Doctor's orders. 859 00:45:34,318 --> 00:45:36,820 Every two to three hours, 860 00:45:36,904 --> 00:45:40,157 five to ten minutes of stretching, 15 minutes of icing. 861 00:45:40,532 --> 00:45:41,783 You can do it, Billie. 862 00:45:49,875 --> 00:45:52,127 How do people not miss me? I just wanna know. 863 00:45:53,629 --> 00:45:54,838 They don't miss me? 864 00:45:55,672 --> 00:45:56,757 I would miss me. 865 00:45:58,759 --> 00:46:00,761 [Billie] "We're gonna miss you so much." 866 00:46:01,303 --> 00:46:03,514 -Sure. -[Mom] I bet they miss you, Billie. 867 00:46:05,474 --> 00:46:06,475 Nope. 868 00:46:06,558 --> 00:46:08,477 [Mom] You know, it's painful to miss people. 869 00:46:08,560 --> 00:46:13,190 And so our brains come up with coping strategies for it. 870 00:46:15,734 --> 00:46:17,611 Why can't we just miss people though? 871 00:46:18,445 --> 00:46:21,114 Why do we have to cope? Why can't we just let it happen? 872 00:46:21,198 --> 00:46:23,450 -Because it hurts. It's painful. -So? 873 00:46:23,534 --> 00:46:24,535 Let it hurt. 874 00:46:25,327 --> 00:46:26,870 I want people to hurt because they miss me. 875 00:46:26,954 --> 00:46:30,082 I don't want them to just act like they don't miss me at all, and... 876 00:46:33,085 --> 00:46:37,214 [Mom] It's already 3:30, and I know you have a lot of people to meet. 877 00:46:37,297 --> 00:46:39,633 -Mom, we're not even there yet. -I know, I'm just reminding you 878 00:46:39,716 --> 00:46:42,010 that you don't have a lot of time to not talk. 879 00:46:42,094 --> 00:46:45,138 Can I just not do anything and just walk around this park alone? 880 00:46:45,222 --> 00:46:46,306 That would be fun. 881 00:46:47,474 --> 00:46:48,725 [sighs] 882 00:46:52,229 --> 00:46:53,605 People are always, like, you know, 883 00:46:53,689 --> 00:46:56,233 "It's so dark. Like, have happy music." 884 00:46:56,316 --> 00:46:58,318 I'm like, "But I'm never feeling happy. 885 00:46:58,402 --> 00:47:00,863 So why would I write about things I don't know about?" 886 00:47:00,946 --> 00:47:04,950 You know, I feel the dark things. I feel them very strongly. 887 00:47:05,033 --> 00:47:06,743 And, you know, why would I... 888 00:47:08,245 --> 00:47:11,164 not talk about them, you know what I'm saying? 889 00:47:11,248 --> 00:47:13,500 [interviewer 1] Yeah, and your fans seem to notice that. 890 00:47:13,584 --> 00:47:17,671 A couple of days ago, we interviewed a teenage band from around here, 891 00:47:17,754 --> 00:47:21,592 and they said they liked your music, and they said, "If you listen carefully, 892 00:47:21,675 --> 00:47:25,762 you can even, uh, listen to her on the brink of crying even." 893 00:47:25,846 --> 00:47:28,223 -[Billie] Mm. -So you transmit it to the people. 894 00:47:28,307 --> 00:47:30,100 Do you think that that's the reason why 895 00:47:30,184 --> 00:47:34,396 your music is resonating so much, uh, with your own generation? 896 00:47:34,479 --> 00:47:37,983 To have a song that is describing exactly how you feel 897 00:47:38,066 --> 00:47:40,819 is just the best feeling in the world. 898 00:47:40,903 --> 00:47:42,821 'Cause it makes you feel comforted. 899 00:47:42,905 --> 00:47:46,533 It makes you feel like there's-- like you're not alone, you know? 900 00:47:46,617 --> 00:47:49,036 In your music, I sense